I think I need to take more rollercoaster rides. Sometimes I feel as though I don't take enough risks and I get bored sitting on the tea cup ride. Sure, it's nice, it's fun, it's amusing, but it doesn't get your heart pounding. There is no thrill, no attraction to the teacups other than they are safe.
Who are we? My friends and I? Are we the oldest generation of children? The biggest group of gifted underacheivers? The overnight bag generation?
Talented, gifted, alcoholics. A whirlwind of drinking and regret. A sense of community I've never felt before. I've lived here for 8 months now and I cannot believe the sense of belonging I have.
Moving to Scotland has taught me so much about myself. Well, maybe not taught me anything, more revealed itself. To be honest, not everything I've found out is flattering or makes me feel fantastic about who I am. But some of the things I've found out are pretty cool.
I know it has been so long since I've blogged. Commented on anything. So much in our world has changed. However, I'm not here to give you groundbreaking, insightful social commentary on world events or the state of the state. There are enough whinging bastards out there telling us all how we should think about the world we live in and people who don't believe as they do are nearsighted, bigoted, racist fools or are denouncing their gods name/image/belief structure. Well guess what? Fuck you all cause my life is so fucked up at times I don't need extra crap to confuse me. Choosing between mixers at the pub or remembering to drink water before I fall into bed (mine, his, someones) in a near comotosed state at half three in the morning is about as difficult as my life decission should be at this moment in time.
Selfish? Hell yes! Worried? Hell yes! About to change my wicked ways cause someone makes me feel guilty about the way I live my life? Hell no!